December 2011
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I can't even imagine a life where someone could be...
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ignore. rant.
I’m a little tipsy, so my emotions might change by the morning;
I’m just kind of tired of decisions. I’m sick of debating on whether I should just off myself or stay and stay like this. I feel like I have so much, or maybe so little, I’m not entirely sure. I don’t even know how I feel about anything. I’m so incredibly confused. I don’t know if I’m...
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The thing with suicide is that if you don't...
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I want someone who can lay beside me with no...
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The problem is that you can't be with a broken...
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It's been exactly one year since I relapsed into...
Everyone in my house was screaming and yelling, it was awful. I was trying to help my mom out with something and she ended up saying something that caused me to shut down. So I went back to my room, and cut for the first time since June. I remember feeling disappointed in myself, but feeling so good for that second that I continued.
I feel like I was a completely different person last year....
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I hate distancing myself from you, when all I want...
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I feel like I'm watching everything behind a glass...
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Promise me you'll stay. Even when I push you away,...
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Anonymous asked: how do you stop the adrenaline knowing you want to and you want to see the cut and you want the pain all to much how do you stop before you grab the tools that are so needed?
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I hate you. I hate you because you let me get...
Anonymous asked: I think this blog is a great idea!! It'll also help motivate others who believe they can't stop. I can't wait to see your progress, it's going to be amazing! :D I used to scratch my skin off, but i stopped a year ago and all my wounds are healed up. :)
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I can accept that everybody else has left me. But...
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I'm sorry I asked for your help. I'm sorry I told...
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blondecatlady answered your question: What do you guys think?
sure that is agreat idea! I would partake, though it wuld be my legs, not my arms. I just relapsed too :/ so thiswill be good for me
I meant to say anywhere you self harm! I mainly do my arm though, so I was just in that mind set. But wherever works :)
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What do you guys think?
So, I was thinking about this;
I hate when people post pictures of their arms for pity. I really do. But what if I put up a picture once a month to show the healing process? It’s mostly for me, but I want to also show people that they can do it if I can.
And it could be optional to send in your pictures anon or not, to show your own healing process.
Thoughts?
**EDIT: If you think this is...
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Thinking about cutting? →
Anonymous asked: why are you doing this? like this blog. just curious.
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turned my messages on again..
I might turn it off again soon though
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romans9 answered your question: is this really weird or..?
I used to do the sane thing.. I think i have a few left on my pc… Ive been thinkg of starting to cut again…
I wasn’t planning on replying to any of these, but your ask is off and I just need to tell you this;
Cutting doesn’t just hurt you. It hurts everybody around you, too. You may not see it, but I do. Even if you feel...
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Last night of cutting. I'm not promising, because...
But I can tell you this; I’m doing it for myself. Because I told myself I wouldn’t if I met Katy, right? And I fucking did it anyway. So no more. Last night. Fuck. This is going to be hard. But I’m going to.
I can do this.
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Stuck in between; if I stop cutting, I'm failing...
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Sometimes it just hits me. Katy fucking Perry told...
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I'll pretend I'm okay, and you can pretend that...
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is this really weird or..?
After I cut, I take a picture on my phone. I don’t save it or send it anywhere, I just look at it. I feel like I can only see what I’m doing to myself through a different perspective, like what I’m seeing with the naked eye isn’t real. I don’t know. Seems so weird to me..
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I just need to vent.
What the fuck am I doing? I don’t know anymore. I don’t know where I’m going with my life. I want to give in, give in to the easy option. The other day I took three times my dosage for my antidepressants because for some idiotic reason, I thought it would make me happier. It did for approximately one hour. And then I felt even more suicidal/depressed. I started hallucinating, and...
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I'm so tired of people telling me to "find God"....
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Sometimes, the person that’s trying to keep...
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It's not that I don't have anyone to talk to, I...
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I feel like I keep making mistake after mistake,...
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The monster has come out to play, and this time,...
someone remind me to take the whole fucking bottle next time
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I'm becoming somebody I don't recognize.
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Saying "I'm fine" leaves a bad taste in my mouth,...
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That moment when your best friend asks if you've...
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I come off as a bitch, but I'm just scared that...
sorry I keep changing the url.. people from my school keep finding this.
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I'll say whatever I have to to makes you believe...
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The words that are unsaid are just as important as...
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swallow another pill, cut closer to a vein, take...
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The worst part of a relapse is that it is even...
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princessofthefaggots:
That’s the problem with pushing people away. You need them but you don’t want to need them. You love them but you hate that they won’t leave you alone. You know that they will never really walk away, and that kills but at the same time, makes you feel loved.
I never reblog anything, unless it’s from my own blog, but I couldn’t of put this in any better way.
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I don't mean to sound co-dependent, I just mean...
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I'm giving into all my cravings, acting on all my...
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I want to tell you how I feel, but I'm scared if I...
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I want to push everyone away from me. I don't want...
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This monster isn’t what you expect. There are no...
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The thing that really gets me is that I had a...